Marcus

Where God has you. Where He can take you.

2009-11-08T03:49:30Z

Last week I was pushing pills at a pharmacy. I gave my future to God in one prayer and this week I'm working at a church and just left a youth confernce that touched the lives of so many, including myself.

I'm living the dream that God placed in my heart. I went from a job that got me by to a career changing lives and spreading the love of my Father in heaven. It struck me how lucky I was as I was on stage taping the worship team and saw how much joy was on their faces just being with the Lord and saw the kids in the sanctuary just praising Him for being the creator, author, and finisher of our lives.

Full- time ministry is the passion God has placed in my heart. Give your love to God and watch him fulfill the desires of your heart.

We have eternity through Jesus, but He came for more than that. He came to give us life abundenlty. His plan is a purpose. A purpose to posper us and lift us up. Just let Him do it.

Pray expecting.

2009-10-22T06:58:47Z

So, it's been the strangest 2-3 weeks in my life.

I finally got to say a lot of things I needed to say. I've grown confident in the relationship God has me in, and a career path has been placed infront of me.

The Bible says that when you pray, pray expecting in full faith that God will hear and answer your prayer. I prayed for God to lay before me the career He has chosen for me. It was one of the first prayers in a while that I truly felt expectant. It was selfless and the motivation in my heart was to truly have God's hand come into play. I didn't know when, where, or how, but God shed some light as to why my previous attempts at moving or college have not been fruitful. He opened the door for a full- time position working in ministry. I can't wait to see what more God has in mind for me. I've never heard His voice clearer. I've never seen His grace so abundent.

God is good. All the time.

Deja Vu

2009-09-19T02:11:04Z

Strippers.

But seriously, it feels like last fall on repeat.
Jacket, sunflower seeds, Underoath.

I guess besides those three things a lot is different when I really think about it.
I don't think weekends exist in my life anymore.
They're overrated anyways.

New job, prease.

Stressful day.

2009-08-27T01:41:46Z

Work sucked and is going to suck for the next month.

The weather, however, is starting to feel like fall. Which means my birthday will be soon. Sitting on my deck right now the crap day I just had doesn't matter. It's dark. It's cold. And I'm into it.

What's up normal clothes?

4 am

2009-08-16T07:55:16Z

Apparently that's my new bed time.

Finally completely moved in.
Awesome.

First

2009-08-12T04:22:56Z

Official post from my own place.

My room is tight.

On my own.

2009-07-22T05:33:33Z

It's official.

Moving out at the end of August.
Anxious and quite excited.
Good times to be had.

Moving out soon?

2009-07-19T05:30:48Z

Methinks so.

We will find out soon.

Attitude

2009-06-12T06:24:38Z

I need to check mine.

Yeah, I hate my job. Well, hate my schedule. At least another raise is in my near future, and I get the time off to intern at church. I can't have it all as much as I want to.

Means to an end, Marcus... Means to an end.

1 credit card down, 3 more to go!

Intercession

2009-05-22T02:52:01Z

I have not ceased to pray for you and to ask that you may be filled with the knowledge of His will in all spiritual wisdom and understanding, so that you will walk in a manner worthy of the Lord, to please Him in all respects, bearing fruit in every good work and increasing in the knowledge of God; strengthened with all power, according to His glorious might, for the attaining of all steadfastness and patience; joyously giving thanks to the Father, who had qualified us to share in the inheritance of the saints in Light.

Thunderstorms.

2009-05-14T05:50:19Z

Good to have you back.

I'm going to sleep like a rock tonight.

Feels like home.

2009-04-26T01:37:47Z

Finally got my old bed back from Nikki. My room feels like my room for once. It took 12 hours but it was worth it.

I'm so excited to sleep.

On the up 'n up.

A few months ago...

2009-04-25T03:55:02Z

I realized my ears constantly ring.

Either someone is always talking about me, or all those years of playing shows without earplugs royally screwed me. I'm gonna bet it's the poor choice of not using earplugs.

Luckily someone invented white noise so I can fall asleep.

So, I have finally forgiven myself...

2009-04-11T23:15:35Z

For things I didn't even know I was suppose to.

I've finally told myself it's okay to want to play music or be a recording engineer. Just because I know I'm smart enough to get a degree in whatever I put my mind to doesn't mean that's what I should/want to do. I need to do what I love, and not feel guilty because someone who I care about doesn't think it's the way someone should live their life.

I miss music. I miss tour. I miss impacting the lives of others who I've never met with something I put my entire heart into. What's foolish about that?

Where God takes me, now that I've realized it's okay to love what I love, I don't know. I'm excited, though. I just know in the meantime I get to learn how to operate thousands of dollars in recording and sound equipment for free because of Him.

God is good and is stoking this passion in me again for a reason. I'm not letting anyone tell me that it's wrong this time around.

hipmastaphlex @ 2009-04-07T02:02:00

2009-04-07T06:02:42Z

Time flies.

hipmastaphlex @ 2009-03-22T01:15:00

2009-03-22T05:15:09Z

Bummer mood. I need to snap out of it.

My hair needs to just be long already.
My debt needs to be gone.
My pity party needs to be over with.

Pharmacy school round two?
If I'm not gonna graduate anytime soon, it might as well be in something that pays me well.

Tomorrow's another day.
Eyes on the prize.

hipmastaphlex @ 2009-03-08T21:43:00

2009-03-09T01:43:42Z

Your eyes lost their sparkle.

Winter '05-'06 revisited.

2009-02-28T10:00:14Z

I saw a lot of old faces tonight. It was really nice seeing everyone, it's just a bit odd seeing how some of my old friends have done little to no growing up, or digressed in life.

I hope this changes. I'd like to see them not settle for less.

I gave up settling. But, it is nice to see the people I miss, and to let myself have a night to feel like I'm 19 again. I know they'll always love me. I'll always love them. It's a good feeling having people like that in my life. Those are the only people I care to surround myself with. As much as I think they need me... I think I need them.

5 am... Time for bed.

Direction.

2009-02-16T02:17:54Z

I think I may have realized what to do with the rest of my days. My soul seems at peace when I think about making this my focus. I really have no desire to rush it, though. I'm just going to let it happen as it will.

I don't look at my age as a time limit to what I need to accomplish.

I don't look down on myself for being 22 with no piece of paper telling me how awesome I am.
I know I'm awesome.

The only thing I know is that when I put my trust in God he has a tendency to surpass my expectations and the expectations of the world I live in.
He's never let me down.
He never will, either.

Anyways... new job, new house, new outlook.
Looking forward to what the rest of this year has to bring.

Now, just to get over this xBox addiction I've developed.

Same shit different day.

2009-01-10T00:44:36Z

I thought you'd be different.

Proven wrong yet again.
Is there anything without a Y chromosome that isn't crazy?
I'm starting to think there isn't.
Someone please prove me wrong.

$8

2008-12-31T14:31:16Z

So, I am currently on the train to Chicago and Pat asks if I would like to join him on his way to the snack car. I oblige, and we begin our journey. Shortly I am greeted by a menu with 5 star prices and Speedway selections. Being that I had yet to eat, I convince myself that $8 for a cheeseburger and can of Pepsi is justified. Wrong.

I hope this is the only poor purchase I have on this little vacation of mine.

I have a feeling '09 is going to be a big year for me.

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College.

2008-12-01T06:52:28Z

Quit eluding me.

I took a risk before and it was the greatest accomplishment of my life.
Why is it so hard for me to take a risk now?

I mean, $150,000 isn't THAT much money.

Who am I kidding?
This is gonna be stressful.

Romantic night by the fire.

2008-11-20T07:42:34Z

I didn't think I'd be this happy with you.

Everything about this seems so very right.
Thank you, Lord.

This is weighing so heavy on my soul...

2008-11-13T07:09:58Z

I feel like I failed you. I had the opportunity to open your life up to something greater than what this world has to offer, and instead of doing what God would want of me I just thanked Him for bringing you back and did what I wanted. What good did this do for either of us?

Last week at church I broke down for the first time since my parents divorced. I don't know if I've ever been that distraught in my life. I'm always so calm, collected, content, but this wrecked me. I closed my eyes and all I could picture was you accepting God into your life - weeping from the joy you felt in your heart that I felt at that very moment. Everything would be better for you if only you knew what I do.

I pray every night and I was almost about to give up all hope, but as always, God stepped in and reminded me that those who come to Him persistently with confidence will not be ignored. They will be answered. They will be given what they ask of Him.

I miss who you were.
I don't want who've you become.
I wish you would have never came back.
I hope your heart will one day know the beauty of Christ.

I truly believe things for you would be better.
I'm sorry I let you down.
Even with this said; I know that my prayer isn't in vain.

Just know...
I pray for you persistently.
I pray for you with confidence.
The rest is up to God.

LJ app

2008-11-05T20:25:22Z

Now I can post on here whenever, too.

Tight?